Anniversary

Anniversary

It’s like a curse to me

A reminder of the hurt I’ve seen

Wrongs done between you and me

My heart beats

Irregularly

Too busy

Recovering from the last ambush

After all it’s took

One year later and this is how it looks:

The same

Rewarding the anniversary of one cheat with another

Yet somehow I’m to blame

Again

You left

I thought we were done

If I had that excuse

To go out and do what you do

We’d be one for one

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Don’t leave 

Don’t leaveI feel you slipping away from me

You close your eyes and I can’t see

If you’re still here with me

Don’t leave

You were the only clarity in this complicated world

Only sanity I found in you girl

Only sane away from the mundane 

Don’t leave

I need you

Don’t leave

Please

I need you

I was you.

9/28 

TodayI saved a life

And normally when I would be writing about mine 

It wasn’t

And to think I almost thought nothing of it

And to think you almost died acting on suicide you’ve done it

I would never forgive myself because of it 

Your words slipping slurring

Text messages triply words are blurring 

Suicidal ideation re occurring 

Trying to be gone in such a hurry

I just want to take away all your worries 

No regrets because you’re for me

No societal expectations 

No conforming

I’d be mourning if you weren’t here in the morning 

5:30 a.m. Fall Morning

Twilight

Purple skies

I look up and there’s twinkling in your eyes

I take you for granted -I realize

To be up before sunrise

Enveloped in your air

The cool, slight wind nibbles at my skin when we meet there

A stillness everywhere

Reminds me to take it all in without a care…

I care

I know someone who believes

That if they were to leave

Thank no one would care five days later

Like her life is filled, full of haters

Who -for their own good -act like they care

Can you compare?

I know that there are times when I’ve been there

But four years with you is what I cherish

So I wouldn’t be embarrassed

To say that if I live to see you gone -I couldn’t bare it

Since you didn’t know

I thought I’d share it. 🙂