Preponderance

Sometimes the stress, and debt of life makes me think, “marriage is too much of a debt,” “a kid is too much of a debt,”

 

And I counter that thought with eugenics. If I were not poor and striving to rise above, would debt even be a concept -an excuse in my mind as a reason to slash kids and marriage?

 

But then again, marriage is a dowry, so it’s all about money, right?

 

I think my thoughts are brilliant

 

But I counter that, too, with maybe they’re just drunken ramblings not worth penning

 

And I counter that with, “I always think that” as an excuse not to write down my thoughts.

 

Those very thoughts that I look back on, vaguely, and think, “Damn, why didn’t I pen that?”

 

Which leads me full circle.

 

Is this preponderance worthy of penning or not?

 

I guess I’ll never know, until I do…

 

…and so, I do.

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